updates on me

its been a while since i last wrote something in here. Actually, I forgot my password, bit I glad i found a way to retrieve it. andaming nangyari...about that academic misery, i passed compiler laboratory, trying to finish methods of research and feasibility and now facing academic misery in systems design and software laboratory. Both has a deadline by the end of this month. I just hope we can finish it. This will be the last term that will be very hard for me, after this, my load is alot lighter and hopefully manage to have a job, even as part time. Hopefully, the next term will be my last in the institute ( i just wished its name will not be changed). About this thing, the institute i am into is facing a dillema right now, the board of trustees decided to change the name of the institute without even consulting the students. What im asking from this authorities is that they should practice transparency. Thaey should have told the students earlier about these plans so as they can assess the proposal. Now that the change of name has been approved by CHED, im asking the good office of the board of trustees to please laid down to the students every basis of their decision. Be it projections, assumptions, statistics, financials, everything that they have considered. through this, the students can fairly assess the proposal. If the positive really floats, then shall be it. but they should have listen to the students sentiments first before they decide on something. They did not practice equality. its not a good practice in decision making of hearing one side of the proposal or topic alone. Every angle should be studied. well, i just aired what i want to say. sometimes it is difficult to reach the ears of the suppose to be listeners. Its early in the morning and still planning to do things. I have so many to do yet i still have my betterhalf as my priority. We cannot avoid problems in a relationship however we can do something so as we will not be devastated by it. I was merely broken by it. I dont know what is happening to me. Maybe i should enter the sacred space so as to see my purpose. but as iv seen it, im in the sacred space right now. ifeel alone even though everybody is around me. its so complicated that there are things that can be disclosed toi very few people and limits my circle of friends. before i have so many friends in cliche level and very few pweople reached the the peak level. its very diffuicult to keep everything in your heart. ang cancer cells baka dumami..joke! but really, its difficult when you see persons that hurt you. you want to forgive but cant find a way to look at them without hurt. good for me that i improved since that day, iam not that bitter anymore but still coping. its been a year since that thing happen and i cant do anything bout it but to let time heal the wounds. but people around cannot understand me, im used to it. i just hope im strong in facing the evaluation. my spiritual life is declining, my pains are eating mew, i never felt this emptiness before. i know i needd HIM but i try to be hard on him. its wrong but i dont know. im confused. until next time, il finish first my surfing. thanx for ur time if someone did read this. dont be bother, thats how colorful life is!