Priorities

From the start I always lived for the extra curricular activities instead of the norms.

For some they study well because they want to excel in their studies but for me, I study well to maintain my privilege of being active in my organizations and friends. Even while working I can still live up to this lifestyle. I can also say that I have accomplished well in my corporate path as a Support Engineer. But since I transferred to becoming a PM, I think I have to adjust. My body is not coping well with the mental stress of my new position. Having the mental stress and physical stress, I am inviting sickness into my system. I have lots of activities at present…and Is currently thinking on which will come first….

my feelings at present

I am stressed.

 

From a heavy weekend, my Monday is not really a good one.

So many concerns are running in my mind and I can’t just brush off everything.

There are deadlines to meet and I am overwhelmed by all that is coming.

 

I am asking for enlightenment to guide my day, to help me identify my goal.

I am still half hearted with my current responsibilities and I want to know which path to follow.

I’ve been doing everything for the past 25 years for everyone around me.

 

I’ve been a good daughter, a responsible sister, a good student, a good officer, a good employee, a good Christian and in almost all the roles that were given to me I’ve done my best to fulfill it with my best self. Even if sometimes it was just by chance that I got there. There are times when I often say, ‘I don’t know the reason behind my choices’. It is often times a mutual decision and that I never really look inside for what I really want. I often copied what other wants for me, and luckily I do well at what they want for me.

 

For this year, I want to make a difference. I want to know myself more. To explore my inner self to decide for what I want and what I need.

With the grace of God, I will know myself better and make my own decision base on what I want.