going through the changes

As I have said last week,I wanted to do some changes...but then again, all changes will face some resistance. It tests us on how serious we are in undergoing the change that we want...Well, for the pictures, obviously, I still don't have pictures...i am not comfortable taking pictures using my phone...and i don't have a digicam that come in handy...for this, i have 2 options, to be comfortable with my phone or buy a new cam...well its workable anyway.

When I posted my last blog, a friend recommended a site that teaches better ways to do blogging. Its good but then again, I can't find enough time to listen to the audio and do the tasks. However, i did started with day 1 and 2 even if i already have day 7 in my mail. The video thought me that even name of my blog site is important. Knowing that, i wonder if i can still change this blog site. Peace!

For the regular updates, no commitment yet but Im doing my best to create a post at least once a week then I am hoping that I can increase the frequency...

I am still positive that I can do this... someday, I will also be known in the online community

boring

One of my goals this year is to increase my online presence. One of the things that though of is reviving this blog site. Initially I just want some avenue to express  my thoughts. But when I saw my site before I sleep. I saw that its boring!

SAD to hear but the 1st step to change is awarenes....I would accept suggestions to further make this site more exciting and informative. However these are ythe few things that I thought of:

1. I will add pictures...some people bare visual and would be attractive to pictures..i need to have my own camera again...

2. Have a theme or build a story...like some people who do projects where people could go back regularly....I am thinking of fashion blogs, sharing my own fashion sense, beauty regimens, self improvement and i am open to more suggestions

3. Commitment to make the regular schedule of blogging. 

I am hoping this will be the last boring blog that i will write...haha...

Telling the truth...

Telling the truth is an important part of discovering who you are. The truth will set as free as everyone knows this but a phrase that is hard to live by. I can still remember my younger years when I always believe that I am hiding under a Happy mask. There were times when I felt so lonely and weak but I don't want the people to see my vulnerability. It even came to a point when I don't want people seeing me crying. I don't want them to see me cry because I feel so weak. In my mind, they accepted me because I have this strong personality and showing them my vulnerability will dislike me. This is the same feeling that I felt when I failed my Electronics in College and when I failed my relationship. I diverted all my attention to projecting my composure and hiding again under the happy mask. I am happy and found a family with my team. I was given a chance to work outside of the country and I was indeed blessed in meeting all of them and having that experience. It was earlier this year that I am facing feelings of loneliness and laziness. Not the usual adventurous and eager me that I know. I study the factors, trying to identify the dillema. It was the peak of stress and I cannot handle it anymore. I then accept to myself that I am not happy. After that acceptance, the people around me notice the change in aura from a stressed weekend to a more free weekdays.

I started to let go of my look good image and is learning to be true to myself. I commit that truthfulness will always be of me and will not compromise my happiness to other people's expectation. This is my life and I will live it to the best way that I know...I commit to truth and will live by the truth.

I am now commiting myself to bring change in my life in 30 days. I will be following the book of Rhonda Britten. Will keep you posted of how i will bring the change that I need in my llife....

One step to change

I am tring to post this as a comment but I am unsuccessful, i hope this will still be read by a lot of people....

Personally I believe that the change that we want to see in our country should start from each and every Filipino. Because we cannot control other people but we can control ourselves. If we want change, we can stop complaining ang work on how to change our reality. We always blame the rich, the capitalist, the politicians and almost everybody for all the misfortune that we have but we can also accept it, move on and act until your reality is the change that you dream. It all starts with a dream but then we also need to act, move out of our comfort zones and rely on our self not on the government, not the foundations and not every one else. What we can expect from the president elect is to do his role at the best possible way he can but I also believe that for him to be the agent of change he has to have the will power and action to do the things that he promised and be a good leader, it means that he can lead the rest of the Filipinos to start acting responsibly, to be an asset in this community and be the change that this country needs. This is a team effort, let us all do our part.

1 year of friendship

I acknowledge the friendship that I gained in Darwin, it was a year ago when I have no idea on what will happen to me in a foreign land, far from my family, my friends and far from my usual daily routine. It helped me to see that I can really embrace change. I was glad that I can still easily make friends with the Filipinos that I met and with my coworkers. I had much fun with the 4 months that we had. I have visit some scenic views and encountered new cultures. I love the people that Ive met and I will keep them i my heart. They will always be special to me. The Darwin team, The friday drinks @ The Deck, The race day, The buffet @ Casino, The markets, The simple life, these are the things that I missed in Darwin. It is indeed a blessing that I was able to join them, I indeed attract travelling and in this trip, my friends introduce me to a world of travelling. In this I started to dream of going to different parts of the world doing the things that I love. One thing that I like as well in the community is the warm greetings of those that are jogging, walking or those that are just concerned. I miss the Wii, the cooking, the karaoke (videoke), the fishing. It was a very good experience and it teaches me that embracing change will always turn thing into something good. I am looking forward at coming back to Darwin to meet old friends and celebrate the friendships that we had

my growing self

My day started good. woke up from a good night sleep but still sleepy and cuddle for around an hour. As I dressed up, I saw my new dress, I was saving it for some special event but decide to wear it still. It makes me feel good and more confident. My day is full of meeting and Ive got lot of praises for my attire. It gives me a realization that indeed I must improve myself with the way I present myself. It has always been the 1st impresion. It can build or break rapport and in business it is very important to build relationship. Knowing this, I will start to look better day by day. By improving my self, my business will improve because the world is a reflection of myself. Starting today, I will acknowledge my daily learnings and blessings received and update you of the changes happening to me....

I will start with Carl, for sharing his learnings in our discussion this afternoon. It helps me watch my responses. Lav, for sharing her business strategy, I will try it and hopefully find results. To Jeff, for allowing me to share my knowledge and for him sharing his ideas too. To Flow, for mentoring me since the day I joined "the community". To my mom, for checking out the itinerary for our borawan trip. To Leny for my free cheese bread and to sheng for my free ripe mango. To chevron team for a good lunch in your area. To Sarah, for her encouragement for the upcoming camp.